i don’t know. i just don’t know. i’ve been feeling restless lately. i went to california for a week, but that didn’t scratch it. i cut my hair, but i still feel charged. like i should start running and see where i end up. this is a bad plan while living in the city, because the problem is, i don’t know where i would end up. baltimore is filled with places that you really don’t want to end up.

but i feel like i’ve got to do something. i’ve got lots of ideas swimming around in my head. ideas for stories and maybe screenplays. i can’t get any of them out, though. i’ll get a few lines, or even paragraphs, and then all i can do is just imagine where it will go, but the words won’t work. i think best when i can talk things out, but i hate to just chatter at people.

isn’t the adderoll supposed to be helping this? i know why it isn’t. i take it at work, and then i can’t write because i’m meant to be working. i don’t want to take it on the weekends, i don’t want to be dependent.

i don’t know. i just don’t know.


2 thoughts on “pffffft.

  1. huggses– I’ve been there. I’m there now in fact– I just went running. And I ended up somewhere I didn’t want to be. And then I imagined a great story about a criminal who goes running a lot, which I am now preceding not to write.Oh the joys of not being able to think straight for gd was I doing before I started reading these entries.

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